It was raining earlier, but it's not raining now. It's cold outside, but it's not snowing. I shampooed the carpets and picked up twigs from the backyard. I'll need to rake up the leaves with the lawnmower because it's easier than using a rake. I'm unemployed and I'm praying to GOD that filling out job application forms doesn't disrupt the day to day business of the store. By filling out the job application form, I want to make the day to day operation of the store easier, not harder. I don't own a car so I travel by bicycle. Without employment, I'm earning unemployment compensation. I'm not afraid to seek help through welfare to keep myself above water. Since unemployment compensation is my only source of income right now, I can't afford rent for an apartment. As a result, I'm forced to move back in with my Mom after twelve years of independence in my apartment. I would like to be employed, repay my college tuition loans and move into my own apartment again. I just need one employer who is willing to take a chance on me and place me on the payrole longer than four and a half hours. Yes, my life is depressing and a mess.
I wish I could step outside this welfare earning mess of a life and into a more successful version of me. Then I could look back at this welfare earning version of me with a laugh and say, "Thank GOD I don't have to worry about that anymore." However, that's not biologically possible. I still have to survive this pathetic existance that I'm in and keep struggling towards the light again. There will be happier days again. I shall be employed again. As I struggle with the issue of unemployment, here are some photos of TWILIGHT films series actress Kristen Stewart.
